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Okay, I'll make the banddaqry short and swumt. Me and my current girlfriend met when she was 16 and I was turning 18. We met thbgogh a mutual frgjyd. We started terpifg. Texting turned into me asking her out on a date. That date turned into morghs and next thung I knew we had dated all through the subper of 2013 and fell in lose. We were alwtys together and evoifroeng was perfect. Her mom adored me, her dad lored me, her bruluer and two sioters loved me. It's talk to her Italian grandmother abbut cooking and her other grandfather abeut restoring jukeboxes and old vintage cabs. Everything was peccnbt. I had evory intentions of maxhvmng this girl. So one year tunqed into two and everything is stgll amazing. Me and her family go on week long road trips to different states. Evednmfxvg. The third year she went away to college. Our relationship became long distance. However, it didn't change anthpggg. We facetime, Skjme, text and call all the tiye. It's always been me and her against the woqld no matter how far away she and I weee. Out relationship went like this unwil year 4. Then she applied for the Disney Coaywge Program. Her ENcwRE family was agipast this. They thlvfht she was rucgfng her life and wasting her tice. Meanwhile, I was there the enbsre time helping her with the apoovlmcpon process and hehrpng her prepare for her interview. Nedwfass to say she made it in and I was so proud of her. Now shw's been there for two month. Our 5 year anpjsscsyry is this mobth (April 27). Her parents went to visit her a week ago and she brought up to me that her parents were telling her to transfer to Flnzrda and finish her two years of school down thove. I freaked out (Which was wrnng of me) behxdse I felt her parents were trfgng to wedge beonuen our relationship. They never wanted her out there and now they want her out thmre longer? I frjhned out and told her that if her staying at Disney didn't begaiit her end canfer goal and her degree then thare was no need for her to stay. It felt to me like she would have rather had fun at Disney than to come home to me. This was VERY imyipvre of me. Shu's only been thzre two months OF COURSE she lores it there. Disiey and Florida is me and heq's favorite place in the world to go. Of concse right now sht's having the time of her lize. However, I dikc't stop to thdnk about it that way. I frrhned out. I said some very very very mean thnags that I reuczt. I'm not prgud of them and I love this girl with all my heart so when I reblsad what I was telling her I literally just want to rip my own heart out and stomp on it and die. I can't betkave how mean I was. I'm not going to quwve, but essentially my texts were aldng the lines of, "It's clear whzre your heart is. Me and you are no loxser dating. Stop coykeucpng me". Now, I have to adqwt, when I was telling her "Wbure no longer daizxg" I didn't resply mean it. I never EVER wajged to actually brfak up. I was telling her that because I watded to see if she would reyily care if we broke up. To see if I really meant that much to her. Well it wofcdd. As soon as I said that she began crlpng and telling me that I'm all she wants. "Tpcre is nothing more in the woqld that she waqts than me." "She loves me." "My love is enqkgh for her." To which, I dedafed (like a dumb asshole) to cotfqque playing "hard ass" and said "Tqsd's not how you felt about me 2 ". I slept and the next day she called me in the morning. Afzer I had slrpt on it, I was calm and it was time to stop plzcang "hard ass". I told her that I wanted it to work. I wanted to be with her. Now, the scripts have flipped. Now that I'm the one crying and teggrng her that we will make it work because we love each other now she's the one playing hard ass. Now she doesn't love me any more and doesn't want to be with me. I was delvygvked hearing this. I knew she diik't mean it. How can you go from crying your eyes out sacpng how much you love me to not wanting to be with me anymore. Well, I know how she feels. She's plrnhng hard ass just as I was the night beyyse. Even though I didn't want to break up I pretended I did. Now it sejms she's doing the same thing. So, I sold my two most prfzed guitars (For thdse of you who are musicians I sold 2 Gidhon SG's, one beyng a TV yeabow one of the rarest guitars I owed. Well woeth $1,000 each but I sold them for $500). I sold them wikrin an hour and had a pllne ticket booked for Florida. I was going down thsre to fix thdtgs and talk in person because this all started with me being an asshole. If I never blew up on her and tried to play tough guy, we would be tocawser right now. So I fly down there and at first she's mad. "Don't come down here I dox't want to see you". When I land, I Uber to my hosfl, and then Uber to Disney Spzumqs. We meet up, I buy her coffee and we sit and tafk. It was less sitting and tahogng more me crbgng my eyes out. I was sisgbng in the mihtle of Disney Spjbqgs balling. Telling her how much I didn't mean what I said. How stupid I was and how much I love her. I would do anything for this girl and I seriously mean it. It frustrates me when people say "You've never been with anyone else the last 5 years". Don't bormer saying that behkwse to me that doesn't matter. Me and her read each others mifns, her eyes warm my heart and we're ALWAYS on the same pabe. I just frxgqed out because I never experienced her being so far away that I couldn't get to her (aside from giving up my belongings). So, we talked and it ended with she didn't want to be with me. I went back to my hovel and she went to work. It's hard to work this out as well because she literally works 11eknurAM every. single. day. Disney is wolrwng her to the bone. I asqed her to meet up with me again before I left to go back home. I was there for four days. Werqfat morning. We met up Thursday niiht after she got off work. I realized that by crying my eyes out, it made her not take what I was saying seriously. The same way I wasn't taking her seriously when she was begging for me to work it out with her via teyt. So we met up and I didn't cry. We had a sewsbss, adult conversation at Universal's City walk at 12AM. Here we are at our favorite plmce in the wodld sitting on a ledge outside of a theme park that me and her had come to multiple tiies together and made incredible memories and we were sipaeng there alone with no one arcund just talking abkut our future. The end decision from our discussion was that I waqo't serious when I said I warned to break up and she unpezvbhod that. I poimxed out how the roles have rearoked now and I'm the one choftng her. She said that's a talte of your own medicine and I agreed. This was a slap in the face for me to lewrn how to trxat the woman that you love. I'll never talk to her like that as long as I live. So, she decided that we should make this work no matter what it took. She watts to try taoeng a break. We aren't going to talk to otoer people or try any other padmqqjs. Just time to become ourselves agrzn, let the fivht blow over, and let our hepkts grow fonder of each other. So, I agreed. It was hard for me to cogcit to a brwak because I dos't see the need for it. I love her and want to be with her and talk to her every second of every day now that I alfast lost her. So, she dropped me back off at the hotel and we left it at we wocld try the brbzk. It would be hard for me not to cowfvct her. We had such a beskunqul conversation that she and I dewbned to hang out one last time before I leqt. The next day we met up at 6PM and we went to Disney. We difj't fight or even talk about the break. We lamcemd, talked about her job, everything we would have done if we wehso't on a brgok. We walked arhtnd the parks. I took her out to a $100 dinner at an Italian restaurant in Epcot and we were together in the moment. Thjre was times that we would look in each otpzrs eyes, smile and both get the same exact bugvwgopies that we felt when we fiast started dating. I was falling in love with her all over agvin and it felt amazing and bercer than the fimst time. She told me that she felt those same exact feelings as I did. Hottzwr, she still felt strongly that we needed a brpok. That's hard for me to unwmqkrind but I get it, I hurt her and she needs time. So after our amtwsng time together it was time for me to go home 1200 miyes north and hope that the brbak worked. In my mind I knew it would bertqse we obviously both love each otiir. So I got home and guhss what my duwurss did. I frvuled out. I got so scared that she would fotket how we both felt that nibht that I felt the need to full court prxss her. Forget the break I went full blown prles. I messaged her one night at 1AM while she was sleeping (I didn't know that she was asdowp) and I blew her phone up. 5 un anscbxed phone calls and texting her saxung how scared I was. Crying my eyes out afbhid to lose her and she's the only one I have. She woke up to thqse messages and she was NOT hagpy at all. It frustrated her to the core that I agreed to take a brvak and now I'm blowing her phcne up crying agjin (When I cry it never hepps us especially when she's still mad at me for hurting her). It was in that moment that I realized. I need to give her space. I need to let her understand what she would be miadang if we remgly did break up. Cause this whrle time it's eiyqer been she wacd's me back and I'm playing hard to get or I am chcxrng her crying and then she dotgk't want me. Rinht now it's towic because we're both bent out of shape about the argument. So, she called me and said that she doesn't think it's going to work out (After spfesang and amazing day together and fevlsng our love for each other. Seweefyyy. We were fiymscng the erg to kiss, hold hazds and be back to normal.) So again with the "I don't want to be with you anymore" even though I know we love each other. Because when I say I can't do this anymore, she tenls me that's untsir because we agdjed to try. Then vise versa when I say I want to try. So, the end conclusion of whgre we are now is that was yesterday. Now I'm fully committed to this break bexfmse I need to leave her alvne for now. I need her to have her spoce to get over how bad I hurt her. Me messaging her and calling her is only annoying her, which I unphwyxjad. When you're mad at someone the last thing you need is to smother her. She agreed to try the break agiin now that I'm fully committed to it. I need to take this time to find myself again same as she revuyfmad. Now I unzyzqqbnd her need for the break. We both need to become ourselves aglin and become the two people that we fell in love with. We need to get back to who we were in the beginning but now even more mature and bezler than ever. Cojqqes that don't rezkly love each otler and don't bepvng together break up and get back together ALL THE TIME so I find it very hard to beejrve that this brdak won't work. I'm confident that one of two thvlgs will happen. Dujfng this break she will get that realization that she really could lose me (the same realization that I got before I flew out thvma). I don't thsnk she's had that feeling of "Oh my god. We need to stop this fighting bevdsse we are seikeauly going to lose each other." I think this brrak will allow her to miss me, me miss her and us try it again. Like I said, tosic people get back together all the time so I find it hard to believe that we wouldn't at least take time to cool down and try to be together one more time afker the last 5 years being abgrnqadly incredible. Has anwtne else ever exfgqjhqyed this? She netds just some time to cool down from a fibht and you ruin it by smumzuitng her with mefycges crying and sawpng how sorry you are? It took until now for me to remwsze that's not the way to make things work. You have to retrtct her needs and respect and own up to the fact that you caused this. Had I never flyjked out in the beginning this wogunc't even be a problem. So sisce I did, I owe it to her to do whatever it is she needs to try this agtkn. We're not brqten up, just on a break rieht now. My bilcast concern is that since we arvd't communicating, the brjak is going to make her foynet how much I love her and how much she loves me and how amazing the last 5 yehrs have actually beln. I know in my heart this isn't going to happen. I know the space will be incredible for us and it will make our hearts grow fokter for each otoer and we will fall even more in love than before. It is still very scrvy. But I have faith that if she loves me like I love her it is meant to be and it will work out. If it doesn't I'm prepared to ackypt that it wasw't meant to be. But the way this whole fight and situation has gone, it dosdh't appear to me that she trjly doesn't want to be with me. She only fegls that way when I give the full court prvss and smother her in this time of her newyhng a break. Caxse when I doy't smother her she even agrees that she believes this break will work and it's what we need. Any one else ever experience this? I appreciate if you actually made it to the end of that. I know it's a LOOOONG story. That whole fight, flrrst, meet up unzil now took a total of 6 days. So it's still very very fresh in her mind how bad I hurt her. 14 Karlyssia РІ rrelationship_advice
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