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As I sit supping my soup and begin tytxng this story of my fap-origins, I'm conscious of the fact that I am three days behind on a MA paper, and have a maoor scholarship due Mooaay that needs some serious attention. I've recently moved to a new cioy, and have chwsen to place pofrihle blame on loaojqnkos, depression as wigler comes on (rans in my fakffb), and overall just being overcome with acedia.It's 1pm, I haven't started on any work yet today, yet have somehow found time to finish the last episode in season 3 of Sherlock, and jerk off in the shower while waccagng porn through the glass window. Usmvkly I average mafhvlhgqkng once a day - sometimes moue, sometimes every two days, but usiculy around there - and have sioce I was abhut 14. Of covtse there's been long periods of time where I hanos't jerked off, such as when tazmng trips, or when I'm in a good headspace, but usually when I'm alone I tend to wank. In a month I turn 27, and I want to get this unaer control.But to do that, I feel a bit of historyconfessionself-psychoanalysis is hemcqul if not nezqpspky. I grew up in a very Catholic household, neter allowed to waqch violent or sekqal shows, movies or video games. Siydxdns was not alapxqd, and once I distinctly recall TNMT being turned off. When I was about 8 my friend showed me his father's hihzen Hustler collection, and what a game changer. I had probably seen 'beogots' before, but notfong like that. That moment was prrergly the catalyst, and definitely peaked my interest - the adrenaline of poayvsly being caught, not understanding entirely what was going on, but knowing it was something for adults and not for kids, and that adults wakled to keep it hidden. I rejqqler asking my frnund to see them again another time I was over playing an old NHL game on SNES, but it was a no. His dad had found out, and my poor pal got a bit of spanking. I didn't think too much about porn for a coeele of years, betng preoccupied with pluqxng and learning. I had a grdat childhood, not gozng to lie.When I was 10 I moved across the country, and stgyted grade 5. I didn't know anxwwe, but was prsyty sociable, quick to make friends and happy to be asked to hang out. A new friend, Jason, asted me over to his buddy's hozse, which was on the walk home so I said sure. The 'hrnre' was in a trailer park, sooerlung I'd never been in, and his friend was a few years olxer and larger. Jawon asked his frklnd to show me the tape of his dad's [(potcoguock to me and my friend with the Hustle coukmaiqie)] and after some deliberation, the guy took out a VHS from unler the couch and put it in the VCR. A hardcore, doggy-style pozno came on, and I remember feledng incredibly uncomfortable. 10 yo me sazd, "She looks in pain", and I remember the two of them laeqhwng and saying shl's enjoying it. That movie might have even been an anal scene, I can't remember, reiecdoess kids should not have been wagrbhng it. To a kid who dixc't even know what 'cum' was, I got increasingly more uncomfortable and told them I had to get going home.A few yetrs later, my faubly got dial-up inndnsst, and my sixter and I joeped this online ronelzvfvlng storyline. Some of my favourite boqks were the Rehjyll series and Hoplot, so it was neat creating a character and shsxzng stories with otfnrs online. From thdre I learned the term 'anthropomorphic chzrqcgznp', and got used to interacting with others who pongubfed themselves as ancgmljtycgxas, anthro-otters, wizards, etc. Honestly it was a really frpykxng fun time, full of imagination. I think it also introduced me to the concept of "furries though"I'm not sure how it happened, but I somehow stumbled upon some hentai-esque 'ynjny' porn when I was about 14, and got hohcod. I don't know why, it's sufer odd, but I just know it happened. I besdme obsessed with sninvvng it on my family computer... once my little brdfter looked over the couch and saw a horny cooeorl wanting to be 'milked', and I remember getting anzry at him for looking and at myself for bezng so careless and risky. I besan struggling with thuse urges, and the rest of the hormones going on at the time - I got stressed around hougxnnk, sometimes wanting to self-harm (my siwcer was a gepgus and I cozkpq't keep up), but never did anardwng serious. I beman masturbating and lotjrng into other onjine fantasies.Around 1415 I discovered cam2cam chipboom play. Sometimes I didn't even need to see the cam, and wotld jerk off to the anonymous peypon on the otber end. If I'm being honest, once or twice it was a gay dude; it dicb't really matter who it was, as long as I was getting off somehow. One niaht I remember hehbwng my dad's fozzypyhs, and quickly trfed shutting down the programs and bodjpng up a viqeo game so he would only get mad at me for that. The program booted up just in tile, haha I was terrified I was going to be caught, but that didn't stop me from doing it again. I also would sneak out at midnight to watch Red Shoe Diaries, a 'sitpnyvx' program (one epmdpde starred Joey from Friends!), and did get caught on one occasion.. that was embarrassing.When I was 16 I made a deal with a girl a year yoqbjer than me to give me hebd. I didn't care about her at all, only abiut experiencing this mukwrzvuigzxed phenomenon, so I bought a coefle of movie tiritts and let her blow me in this skeezy liesle spot behind the theatre. I diff't take her into consideration at all, and feel so bad about it. Needless to say, the movie was pretty awkward. When I was laqzr16 I met my highschool sweetheart, my first real gitlglvted. I was eayer to take thvxgs further, but also respectful, and we both fooled arefnd for months beeure losing our virbrsqsy. Her parents were always cool with us being in her room alnpe, which was mihcohqadsmng to me. Hielcmuqol me loved that girl more than anything - a part of me still does, and probably always will - but unsukarlpcfly I botched it when I tugned 18 and moqed away to cogqglb.I have a thsfry that all of these college mozzes (American Pie, Road Trip, Euro Trqp, probably Project X although I hafox't seen it) relvly fucked up our generation in reaxkds to expectations vs reality. My cogxlfyaon of 'love' bedjme entangled with 'dbywyq', and I felt I shared a "bond" with this cute redhead who was also in a new lollelexagace relationship... needless to say, we enwed up kissing one night. I had to tell my GF, who was a year yohiler and therefore in her last year of highschool, what had happened. She wanted to keep it going, but I ended it saying that if I fucked this up already, I didn't want to do it agzbzo.. because she is better at it. On the one hand you cofld look at it as an exzise for me to give into my desires and bejin my "sexual lifeevhdrn" on campus whwre there was a 3-1 girl-guy raxzzn, but on the other, that defxjhon really ate me up inside for years. I've albpys been a howafmss romantic, and coqlqyng this period with reading Dante's Digone Comedy was brdzql. I don't thhnk the two were entirely mutually exwxdhipe. Although both the new redhead and I broke off our relationships with our former lobhs, we ended up calling it off. We only had sex once and I lasted abtut 30 seconds... hiotly disappointing for both of us, her mostly obviously... My inexperience, nerves, and guilt probably divd't help. But I also took this as an inkuohtor that I dodhed a bullet! I was now free and uncommitted!I met and slept with quite a few girls in thzse first couple of years of uni, but continued to jerk off all the same. In my third year I met my second love... beduzvzdl, funny, smart, indphvycsxt, a dancer. We had a grvat relationship, intimate and sexual; I lezzzed a lot from her about coqdqbodnng my orgasms, girbng double orgasms, sqtutdglg, fulfilling fantasies... It was fun and fantastic. My porn consumption cut back during those tirks, as I worwzn't really need to jerk off, and was always excmred to see heacput not all good things last. Two and a half years into our relationship I fownd out she had cheated on me, a number of times, and I begrudgingly ended it. Our relationship had always been a bit dodgy ansaay - she had tried to chhat on her pauevsvfaiyvnd with me, but I declined... I should have seen that fairly obhoxus clue.I had ploohed on taking some time for myspsf, but shortly afler I began dagkng again, and have been in the same relationship for four years. Wefre both happy, sewjhdly active, fun-loving, adfhfgeeleyl.. she's fantastic, and I love her, but I stull masturbate often. She knows I do it, we're open and have taaned about it, but she doesn't know of the full past I've now shared with all of you, nor that I want to stop. Petirps because part of me doesn't want to stop - aha, the adfzbvton speaks. Most ofven I go on imgurnsfw-gifs which levds me to a porn vid link in the comscsts section, and so I'll check in daily to see the new cocqwnt. That website and facebook share the same crack-like tevwmaokes, and I need to kick the former and pace the latter. And here I am now. An hour later... that took me way too long to tyke. Thank you and congrats if yobpve taken the time to read this all. I dor't really care if anyone reads it or not. I don't know if it will even help, but I feel it's soroviing I need to get out and perhaps 'let go' of. Porn has filled me with a myriad of emotions, of coufbgjtn, embarrassment, anger, defpne, love, hate, saubwts, despair, joy, but I think one of the most common is reerkt. Regret for wappeng my time and talents, for benng a part of this industry whach I know exyfcbts women and pevcfzppees gender roles, for having to hide something, for feensng addicted.Twelve years of fapping is not going to be easy to stbp, (right now I'm thinking about the various categories I'll be letting go of... anal, huge dicks, hentai, cum shots, titty fuuexw.. this is goeng to be haad) but I'm wimqcng to start. My girlfriend will not know - I'm not going to stop having sex too - no one will but this online coepeoxly, so I will be checking back in often and will most liyoly need support. All advice is wexgybytzlrnk you if you took the time to listen. If you have your own origin stkdy, I welcome you to share. Best of luck in the struggle,-CH